Livin' and Lovin' in A-town

This is Me Emotional

The last few weeks have been emotional for me. Not all sad moments, some have been really exciting, but even a few of the exciting moments have caused me to tear up. I'm sure a lot of it has to do with the lack of sleep I'm getting. Things tend to bother me more when I'm tired. Plus, I'm coming off of an adrenaline rush from the entire school year. We spent the year going 90 to nothin', barely had time to stop and now that the school year is over, things are calm and quiet. No adrenaline flowing here.

I guess my emotional state really began in late March(see last post) but I didn't have time to deal with it, so maybe things are catching-up with me. Anyway, I guess I actually realized I was emotional a few weeks ago when one of my best friends told me she was pregnant. I cried right along with her...not only because she was crying, but because this is something she and her husband have wanted for almost three years. It was an exciting moment and I'm thrilled for them. I really feel like I'm going to be an aunt!

The next two reasons for crying are actually stupid when I think about it. Several of you have posted entries on the Grey's Anatomy season finale. Well, the really emotional episdode for me actually came two episodes before the finale when the pregnant mom was in a car accident with her family. The mom dies, baby lives and the father is left holding the infant's hand in the incubator. Now, this episode came the week after my friend told me she was pregnant, so of course, all I could think about was, what if this happens to my friend!? Then, two weeks later came the season finale. I didn't cry during the finale, but I probably could have. Hello!? I was just able to accept the fact that Dr. Shephard was going to stay with Addison for this season and Meredith would be with the vet. But no, they mess with our heads, have sex in the OR, and then leave us hanging until next season where she'll probably choose to go home with the vet. Wow. The next stupid emotional moment came last Thursday when I said good-bye to four long-time friends. Karen, Jack, Will and Grace. I've watched them since the beginning. For eight seasons now I've been a devoted watcher and all I have to show for it is re-runs on Lifetime. Will & Grace has been one of my all-time favorite shows and there will never be a new one again.

Now, for what is causing me to be emotional this week. My sister will graduate from high school Thursday night. I remember it like it was yesterday seeing her a few hours after she was born in the hospital. I remember the first day she came home. I remember her begging me to play Barbies with her. I remember teaching her how to play tennis. As I sit here, I'm overwhelmed by a flood of memories. Summers spent swimming and laughing, Christmas mornings in our pajamas, trips we've taken. She and I are different in so many ways, but very much the same. She is truly one of my best friends and I am so proud of who she has become. She's an amazing young woman. She's strong, courageous, witty, bold, intelligent and sassy. She has flawless fashion sense and a heart of gold. I am blessed to have her in my life. She'll be moving to Abilene in August and will begin a new chapter in her life. For the first time in seven years, all three Ellison children will once again live in the same town. So, here's to my little sister. May she continue to grow in the Lord, experience the wonders of college and live life to the fullest.